9th July 2021 Dr.Beena
When I first read this word, I was clueless. Once I learnt the meaning, I felt wow, the nasty side hidden from plain view. Just as an example, I remember being laughed at when I sang off-tune in school. It was worse when the music teacher told me that I was tone-deaf. I did not quite understand that then as I was only ten years of age. Finally, I related this incident to my mom, and her response was, ” it’s fine, now you can focus on your studies instead of music practice.” Hence, my dream of being in the school band came to a natural demise. To my chagrin, many of my friends got into the school band. I was devastated.
Schadenfreude is not exactly a pleasant word. I personally feel being ridiculed from a young age may have made me stronger, more resilient, unbridled. Maybe….. Now, why am I discussing this word?
Oh yeah, maybe it is about my venture into this watercolour world. In my naivety, I had shown my acrylic artwork to my neighbour. She advised me to take up watercolour. Little did I know about the difficulties in watercolour. Reflecting on it now, did I take the plunge into the deep sea without knowing the depth? Or is it the tenacity in me that was willing to take that challenge? By the way, I do not dive into extreme risks deliberately :).
I have posted this picture which is a line and wash that I did with acrylic paints. I copied this from Peter Sheeler’s tutorial. I wish to clarify, line and wash is a technique where you use ink to draw some parts of the picture and the rest you colour. It is unlike a regular watercolour painting. Now that I have watched numerous tutorials, I conclude that was daunting on my part. I did a ‘line and wash’ picture before I had any clue about watercolour. I find my behaviour hysterical or comical. I went through this stage blissfully because of my supportive friends. I am very grateful to all my friends who never made a disparaging word. I would have gone into a black hole never to be found for eternity. They never pointed out my lacuna in my painting skill. It made me realize how vital it is to encourage others in their ventures (non-risky).
Thus, despite the connotation of the meaning of schadenfreude, I would say convert the negative to positive, and all ends well. To all my dear friends, I say “thank you” for being supportive of my art. It is still at an infancy stage. For any of you reading this, please stay stimulated to pen your stories. Even the shortest story will be accepted. Keep dreaming of that story, and do not fear schadenfreude. Till the next musing or story, stay safe and be present. Bye for now……